I was going on almost 9 weeks of no contact from Shawn. It was driving me crazy how badly I wanted to just see his name light up my phone or hear his voice once again. Last Tuesday I broke down and cried on my drive home from school and prayed “God, OK so maybe I am starting to realize that maybe you really wanted him out of my life. I asked you remove him from my life if you didn’t intend for us to be together. After all of these weeks with no word from him, maybe that was really your plan all along. But if not, God I need to you give me a sign. Not just the sign of his car but a real sign. A sign so obvious to me and the real big sign of him contacting me.”
It’s been almost 3 weeks since Shawn and I went no contact. This past week has been incredibly difficult for me. I even ended up having another 45 minute call with my favorite English psychic and she still assures me that this is a fated connection and that it doesn’t matter what I do or where I go, Shawn will return to me. She told me that things will turn around for us in the next few weeks. To prove to myself that I am being open to God’s plans for me and in regards to who the man that He has for me may be for me; I have been open to dating. So I went on a date with Fishing Guy. We had exchanged a few texts over the past week. He seemed fun and really loves the outdoors so I figured, why not. [click to continue…]
I really have had quite enough of this. I saw a photo of Shawn with his crazy ex-girlfriend on her facebook page from 2 weekends ago. He was standing beside her, smiling. It totally contradicts what he had been telling me about her and the situation from 3 weeks ago. He last told me that they practically hated each other and that he is only being cordial to her because she cares for his dog still. He is essentially using her because he has no other place to board his dog right now. I had to know what was going on. I can’t continue to desire to want a relationship with him again if he is returning to her.
I have wanted to update my blog for the past few months. I logged in once a week and would start to write the title or the first line of my post and then I would quickly delete it and forget about it. What am I so afraid of?? You; my lovely readers? Random visitors [...]
This seems so silly to not know for sure or not. But How do you know if your ex is genuinely interested in dating you again? I am speculating that Shawn is dating me but I honestly do not know what he is thinking about all of this. Shawn and I went out for dinner [...]