There’s nothing new to report these days. I’m missing Shawn like crazy. To the point where I am starting to feel really insecure about how he feels about me. I know it’s just the distance talking. Tomorrow will be two weeks since I last saw him. The longest I have gone without seeing him was 2 1/2 weeks back in December but this is going to be a record since I won’t see him for about another 2 weeks. Ick!
I feel insecure about “us” because of the stinkin’ distance. We’ve had to rely heavily on text messages. Shawn called me a lot in the beginning of the first week but he hardly called me at all the past week. in fact, so far the only time we spoke on this phone this week was because I asked him if we could. I had to ask him something that I didn’t want to discuss through texting. So that has me feeling a little insecure. Still, he continues to send me a good morning text message every morning and a few nights this week he has actually said “Good night and that he loves me” (he’s kinda lazy about texting me goodnight or he sometimes falls asleep early on accident.)
I just keep reminding myself that the big thing we have looking forward to is our weekend at the cabin next month. 4 days of Shawn, me and all 3 boys. It’s much needed for all of us and will be worth the sacrifice of not being able to see one another these past few weeks. What’s so cool is that it’s Valentine’s weekend that weekend. So it will be interesting to see if Shawn does anything for me for it. I’ll do something special for him, just gotta think of something.
I tell Shawn how much I miss him and he always responds with that he misses me a lot too.
I’m fighting the relationship distance demons that are in my head telling me that maybe Shawn doesn’t really love me or that maybe he’s talking to someone else. You know, typical insecurity crap.
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