The past week has been pretty horrific trying to get together with John to get to know him. It really felt as though the universe was preventing us to meet. After what he did to me on Sunday, I was already having major second thoughts about him. But with patience and understanding, I gave him a second chance. He made an effort to call me twice on Monday and we had some really great conversations. We planned to meet up for lunch on Wednesday and I tried to get more specifics of when and where we would be meeting on Tuesday night’s conversation but he was just so vague and uncooperative.
Wednesday’s lunch date
So I go to the gym at noon and get out by 1:45pm. We were suppose to meet for lunch at 2:30pm. At 2:20pm I receive a text where John says he can’t make it at 2:30 but that he hasn’t forgot, and he would like to meet at 3:30. reluctantly I agree to it. So when 3:30 hits, he starts asking where am I and I told him I was at home waiting to hear where I am suppose to meet him. He suggests McDonald’s by his work. Are you kidding me???? Has this man never heard a word I have said about how I do not eat McDonald’s nor do I let my son eat that junk!?! So I tell him I do not eat McDonald’s. He says “well what do you wanna eat?”
“I’m easy. I don’t care as long as it’s not fast food.”
He doesn’t respond for another 15 minutes and by now I am starving, irritated and on the edge of just telling him to jump off a cliff somewhere!
He responds with “Maybe you were right about me.”
Oh lord, here we go! he is going to cancel and I am losing my patience with giving him do-overs!
“About what?”, ask.
“About me not being the right man for you.”
Oh heck no! I am done with this crap!!!
“I’m done. Don’t contact me every again.”
“I feel bad now….ok”
He then proceeds to flood me with text messages saying he was just kidding and I tell him he shouldn’t kid about things he can’t take back.
“What happened to starting over. You never gave me that?” he says.
“I gave you grace. I have been more than patient with you. I am done with all of this. I want no part of it.”
He starts begging me to come meet him and saying “I have no idea what food places are around here. I only eat fast food near my work. I was gonna say come to McDonald’s and we can find a place.”
“I’m starving. I should have eaten now 4 hours ago, instead I waited patiently for you and then this drama.”
I stopped responding to his texts and he then proceeds to start typing in caps. When I don’t respond he then calls me. I ignored his first attempt and then when he called the second time, I answered. I didn’t say a word, just listened to him. Unfortunately, John is a smooth talker and after an hour he had convinced me to meet him for coffee in the morning. “I think what we really need is just 2 hours of sitting down face to face and talking to get to know one another.”
Hesitantly, I agreed to it.
No Coffee From This “Gentleman”
So this morning I text him at 7:30am and ask if he is awake. No answer. he responds back at 7:50 saying he just woke up and needs a shower and can we meet at 8:30am.
Deja vu!
So he’s finally on his way out at 8:30, meanwhile I am lost because he said the Starbucks was on Blackstone and Olive. There was no Starbucks there! I am now lost in downtown and using my GPS to find the closest Starbucks there and see that it’s not right by Blackstone. He calls and says “Oh yea it’s about a mile down Olive.” I tell him that information would have been helpful earlier. So now I am already pissed and even questioning why I am here to meet him. Do I really want to deal with someone that cannot make plans, that cannot be detailed enough to explain something as simple as where to meet up?
I enter Starbucks but my mind had exited a long time ago. I had already mentally checked out when John entered the Starbucks. He walked in carrying his own cup of coffee from home and asks me “So, are you getting anything?” All I can think of is that he is a cheapskate! he didn’t offer to buy me a cup after I just wasted probably $7 worth of gas to come out to a location by HIS work! It dawned on me that this man is never going to treat me like I want to be treated. I deserve better.
We talked for an hour but it wasn’t the conversation he had expected in which we would talk about things to get to know one another. Instead, I led the conversation by saying “I am pretty certain now this is God trying to stop us from meeting. There are too many barriers blocking “this”. I don’t know what to say because I don’t know anymore.
As he talked to me all I could think about was how I no longer was attracted to him. The chemistry is gone. What ever embers were left from yesterday prior to our conversations about meeting have been put out.
I’ve made up my mind that I don’t want to bother with this anymore but I have yet to tell him and don’t know how to tell him. Perhaps I should just avoid him for hours like he has done to me in the past few days. he has already texted me saying “It was nice to see you” and a few hours later he texted “Are you ok?”, neither one to which I have responded.
He has left me feeling emotionally drained. He had built up himself to be this amazing, romantic guy and yet I have seen nothing of that fruit, only hurt and disappointment.
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Lol, what a loser. Just forget him, it’s not a big deal.