Let me clarify. I have completely shut the door on dating sites. I honestly have deleted my profiles and I no longer log on to check out profiles. I have been talking with a man that lives in Michigan (Brian) the past few nights. He contacted me on a fitness forum that we are both members of. (The same one I talked about in my previous post about what men really think of women on plentyoffish.com).
When he first contacted me, I didn’t think it was anything more than normal fitness encouragement etc. But then he started saying how he would love to talk more with me and he asked if he could watch my youtube vlogs. I gave him the link to my youtube account and he seemed to have developed a crush on me overnight. lol I am obviously flattered by it and he is extremely good looking. Seriously, he is a perfect 10! He has the body of a fitness model and the looks of a television star. I sometimes wonder how he could be interested in me. Obviously he has seen my near bare body because on the fitness forum you post progress photos of yourself in a bikini. So there is no shock for him there. He has seen it all (well almost all.)
I think by watching my vlogs he has developed a crush faster because he feels a closer connection to watching me speak and watching my body language. It’s like watching a realty TV show, you already kind of feel like you know that person you.
I am not going to lie. I have developed a crush on him as well. He is the same age as me and the same height. He seems genuine and he’s a single dad. He talks about his son a lot and I absolutely love that and I am totally attracted to him because of that.
I can see myself falling for him but there are obviously some major obstacles.
1.) The distance
2.) His son.
The reason why his son is an issue is because I could never take someone’s father away from them. Now obviously if we let this relationship escalate, eventually one of us would have to move. I couldn’t take my son away from his dad, as much as I would love to. I just am not that mean spirited and his dad isn’t such a big asshole of a father. I would even say he is a decent father. Not perfect, but decent.
The only way that could ever work is if there was a guarantee that the child would be flown out twice a month to visit. I’ve really considered moving to Socal and that is the only way I would move as well. If I get to the point where I have the extra income to fly my son out to his dad’s.
The problem I have in life right now is that I am always to realistic when it comes to men. I look at the future instantly and judge based on those thoughts. I never just go with the flow and cross the bridge when I reach them. Perhaps I need to wait for the bridge this time. I could pass up my soulmate doing this!
Oh and a few nights ago Danny contacted me on Myspace.I can’t believe it has been a year since we last spoke. I put up a new profile photo and naturally I think that is what caught his attention again. I responded politely but didn’t feed into his trap. I pretty much made it obvious I wasn’t interested.
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