Introducing DE: The man I hate/like

I have this friend I’ve never met. I’ll refer to him as DE. We are friends that met through a MMORPG (for those of you who are clueless that that is, it is a massive multiplayer online role playing game.) At first he was just like any other Joe in game. We’d chat in the game. I’d hear him bitch about other players etc. I would see the stuff he said to other players and often though he was the true definition of a jackass. No tact, he just says what’s on his mind and he could care less if it is gonna offend.

Sometime in November of last year, he gave me his cellphone number to wake him up for an event we were doing in the game. I was hesitant to accept his number and be his “alarm clock”. Anyhow, I called him and he said thanks and we hung up right away. I called him on New Year’s Eve after one too many drinks. The calls became more frequent over time, usually me being the one to initially call him. He then started calling me while we were playing the game and then I noticed he started calling me when he wasn’t in game. He would call me while he was drunk and our conversations would get more intense and he started to make it obvious he was interested in me sexually.

I’m not sure how it started but we started to have weekly “sessions”. I’ll leave that up to your imagination.

I would say he calls me more now than I call him. Several times within the past 2 weeks he has talked about the idea of flying out to meet me or pay for my flight out to meet him.

I can’t stand him sometimes. He’s a prick and a horrible drunk when he does drink. He says things that offend me. I know about 90% of his view towards women and relationships. He has openly said he plans on cheating on his women the rest of his life because that’s just who he is. He doesn’t believe in God but he does respect my belief and doesn’t challenge me etc. He hates kids. He smokes cigarettes and he also smokes pot. he is only one inch taller than me. You see where I am going with this? He is totally the wrong man for me. I would never get involved with him in a million years. He is the man that we woman run away from like hell when we see them walking towards us.

And for some unknown reason, I am attracted to him. I can honestly say it’s not physically because I have never seen his face. I would go as far as to say I have a small crush on him and if we were too meet, yea I would probably be intimate with him. I avoid the topic of meeting every time he brings it up. He’s so bad for me that I know that would only open the door to a world of trouble.

Last night several times during the conversation he brought up meeting one another. I was honest with him and told him I fear meeting him. He understands my fears and he remains optimistic. I know meeting him will drastically change things between us. I will continue to avoid it at all cost.

Tagged as: DE, Massive Multiplayer Online, Video Games