I can’t help but think how unfair life has been to me compared to my ex. He is in his 3rd relationship in the 3 years we’ve been divorced. He has never been alone for more than 2 weeks. I can’t help but get annoyed by the fact that I am still single and have not had any sort of relationship that has lasted past 3 months since.
To be fair I also have not been on a date since August 2007. I’m latina with a decent body. I’m not too fat and not too skinny. I could definitely afford to lose 30-40 pounds (which I have been working on). I get told from numerous men on Myspace and okcupid that I am “hot” or “cute”. I’m not a golddigger nor do I feel a man has to be a perfect 10 (I’d definitely settle for a high 7. Nah in all seriousness, i just expect to be attracted to him.) I must not be all that bad, right?
I get impatient and I feel like dating online just isn’t worth it. I am just waiting for the right man to message me and that I end up feeling instant chemistry with him…yad, yada, yada. I know this is very unlikely to happen and yet I am holding out for it.
I know my biggest barrier is the fact that I am looking for an attractive man whom also believes in God and is on the same spiritual level as me. That just knocked out about 95% of the available men within a 500 mile radius of me. *sigh*
I started my internship today at a Pedontist office. I couldn’t help but notice that all the DA’s are adorable and married. Even the fat, moustached female DA is married. I’m cute dammit!
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