Ever since I discovered Shawn’s ex-girlfriend was messaging me on Facebook, every time I log into Face book, my heart stops just for a second as the page loads and I look immediately at my left hand side of the site to see if my “Others” inbox is showing a new message. I was and am afraid his ex will continue to haunt us and I almost expect her to.
By the way, she blocked me before I could re-block her. I blocked her when she had sent me the friend request but then 2 days later when I had discovered there were actually more messages found listed under “Others” and saw a few were from her, I had unblocked her for the brief moment in which I actually considered responding to her message but decided not to give her any satisfaction of knowing that her getting a rise out of me was working. So I tried to re-block her again over the weekend and I got an error of “You must wait 48 hours to apply a block to this person again”. So come Sunday, I tried to block her and it said that that user did not exist. I tried again, thinking that maybe I had mistyped her name, yet again I got the same error. I went and google searched her and her FB profile came up so I clicked on the link and it said “This person does not exist” which means, she blocked me and she did not delete her account.
Well good! I hope for her obsessive, stalkerish self that she blocked me to reduce the temptation to continue to stalk me and message me. I think it’s good when a person takes that step. I did it for Josh.
I’m not doubting Shawn. I still believe he is and has been faithful. All though he has been a little prankster. Yesterday he had a co-worker send me a text from their phone saying “Hi, this is Andrew. I was just going through Shawn’s phone and I see that you’ve been spending alot of time with him. Well, he’s mine!” I decided to play the game and act like I was really disappointed to hear Shawn was gay.
To get Shawn back for his little prank I proceeded to tell Andrew “You know he has a small penis right?”
Of course as soon as Shawn got off of work he called me and asked how did I know they were messing around with me.
“Um,because I know you’re not gay!”
“Oh whew! What a relief?! But now everyone at work thinks I have a small penis. But I just told them ‘Well, she’s just saying that because her hooha is so loose’; by which he proceeded to demonstrate how the roar of laughter filled his office.
There is just something different about him than any of the men I have dated. So I trust him.
Of course tonight’s text messaging session made my heart jump. We were texting about plans for New Year’s weekend and all of a sudden there was a random “I wanna see!!!”
My heart jumped as I thought Oh heck no?! He is cheating! He’s just mistexted me! Who the heck is he talking to??? Who is sexting with my Shawn?
So I responded with a classy “What??????”
I stood up from sitting in the cozy leather recliner and walked into the bathroom and started to bend over as though I was going to hurl. I felt my stomach drop, I felt absolutely sick at that moment. No response from Shawn. So I grabbed my phone and called him.
“Who the heck are you talking to?” (Oh yea, I forgot to even say ‘hello’)
“To you! I meant ‘I wanna see you!!!’, I forgot the you. Then I looked and saw your “What????” response and I thought ‘Ahhh great!’
“You seriously like giving me heart attacks. I seriously started to think you were talking to someone else and some hussy was gonna send you nude pics or something.”
Shawn starts bursting in laughter. “I am so sorry babe. I didn’t mean to scare you like that.”
“I seriously think you are testing me to see if I freak out or something.”
Continued laughter from Shawn. We continued to talk another 10 minutes and then Shawn mentioned he rented a movie with his boys so I told him I’d let him get back to his movie.
As soon as I hung up, I went to go give my son some cold medicine since he was complaining of a sore throat and when I returned to my room where my phone was, I saw Shawn texted me “I’m sorry for scaring you babe…I love you.”
So yea, obviously I am still a little hypersensitive about the whole cheating issue but I am still gonna trust my man until I see further evidence.
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