Ready…set…Panic!!

“Good Morning Babe! Only 15 more days til the cabin….Whooooo hoooo!” That was the morning text message I was greeted with by Shawn today. The excitement about our cabin stay has been building up like crazy. Shawn is excited, I am excited and all three of the boys are excited. In fact, my son asks me everyday how many more days until we go. Shawn and I briefly chatted about the cabin via text. He got in trouble for texting last week, so since then we have been texting only a good morning text, on his lunch hour and then when he gets off of work.

Shawn had called me on his lunch hour and we were talking for a bit. lately our phone conversations have consisted of how my weight loss is not as quick as I had imagined. (By the way, in case I had not mentioned it before; Shawn has stated over and over again that he thinks I look great exactly how I am now but he knows that it is my wish to be fit and lean.) Shawn has been preaching at me for months that I just have one of those bodies that requires a lot of cardio to lose weight. So anyhow we were talking about that and Shawn said as an incentive and to push me he is going to buy me a bikini and that I better fit in it by June; all the while he is totally joking by the way. (You would have to hear the conversation directly to know his humor.) Anyhow, so he continues to tell me “make it happen! I don’t care what you say or do, make it happen!”

He then says “Ok, here’s the real deal. How much do you wanna lose by the boat trip (in July)?”

“Twenty-five pounds.”

“Ok, so if you don’t lose 25 lbs by, let’s say mid-june. I’m gonna stop this whole Intermittent Fasting, lose my abs and get fat. Then it will be all your fault and you know I don’t want to let myself go like that?!”

“Oh great! So now all this pressure on me and it’s gonna be my responsibility if you get fat??”

“Yup! So make it happen!”

“How are you gonna know what size I will be then?”

“Well, you better just fit into whatever size I buy! What color do you want?”

“Purple and I want it to say “I used to be fat” on the butt in gold writing”.

“You can’t have purple! You need a sexy color like black. You can have the writing in purple!”

“Ok, fine. I want a black bikini with purple writing on the butt”.

 

“Ok, then no more excuses. So what’s your cardio plan?”

“i’m gonna do it 6 days a week!”

“Six days? Ok, I guarantee you, if you do cardio 6 days a week, you will lose weight fast. If you don’t, you may as well drive off a cliff  and kill yourself!”

I start cracking up. “Man!!! You are soo mean!”

He has me cracking up on the phone and he says “boy. I’m a prick!”, as he laughs hysterically. I tell him “I know! Why do I love you again???” He puts on his very serious voice and says “It’s because of my awesomeness….and you know? Because of the size of my….”. I interrupt him with a “Good grief!”

“But babe! You don’t understand! Even if I lose 25 lbs, I am not gonna feel confident to wear a bikini! I’m concerned about saggy skin!”

“Babe, I seriously would not make you wear something you weren’t comfortable in. If you lose 25 lbs and are are not confident to put on a bikini, it’s ok. I seriously just want you to feel your best. I know that I will not be happy until I get my 6 pack back and when I do, I am gonna feel like a million bucks! Just imagine how awesome you are gonna feel on that boat when you know you busted your ass the past 5 months to get that 25 lbs off?! You are gonna feel pretty amazing right?”

“Yea.”

“I just want you to feel that pride. ”

“I know. The saggy skin just freaks me out.”

“Babe, the saggy skin is a given. I know and expect that the extra skin is gonna be there until it gets its elasticity back. When you do all this cardio, don’t quit the weight training. Building the muscle will help with the skin.”

“Ok.”

“I’ve seen the skin now hun. It’s not gonna repulse me. Don’t worry. I know what to expect. Don’t worry about it, ok? Just do what you gotta do!”

I love that Shawn is my motivator. Some people would view this conversation and think that he sounds shallow and like a pig but he isn’t and that’s not how the conversation was. He’s very supportive of my goal to be fit and to become a personal trainer by Spring of next year. He’s the first man that has loved me for how I am now and is ready to support my wishes no matter what they are.

So now for the panic!!!

Shawn’s lunch was over and he had to go back to work. He called me a few minutes later and I was wondering why on earth would he be calling me back so quickly.

“Did you just get that email from Cindy (our cabin rental manager)?”

“No, why?”

“The cabin is no longer available”.

“What??????”

“Yea, she said it’s not available. I would call her but I am at work.”

“Alright, I’ll call her.”

It turns out the email stated that our cabin owner decided to pull his cabin off for the next few months. I freaked out! We paid a reservation fee already and a security deposit. How could they do this to us??? I started to look up other cabins I had bookmarked when we found that cabin and my heart raced with each listing when I could see our weekend was booked on every single back-up cabin I had bookmarked. This can’t be happening!!! Shawn, the boys and myself have been talking about this for the past 2 months! We all have our hopes high for it. Shawn and I need this weekend!!! It’s the whole reason we have limited time spent with one another to cut traveling costs for driving to see one another!

In Cindy’s email, she asked if there was another property of theirs we might be interested in. So I am looking at the other 10 cabins they have and I see that there is one similar in price to the one we rented originally but it’s not nearly as nice looking. It looks small and it would mean Shawn and I sharing a room with at least 2 of the kids. So, I call her and tell her there are none we are interested in because the rest are more expensive. She tells me to check out one in particular and even though it’s $25 more a night than the one we booked, she said she can give us the same rental price. Sweet!!! Game on!

 

 

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