Single = Independent

I recently signed up on Facebook after an online game friend convinced me too. At first I found it to be very boring and plain. Not as zany as myspace. Anyhow, I decide to check out old high school friends. I sent a friend request to a girl I knew and liked. We weren’t the closest of friends. We were more like acquaintances. Anyhow, she is a speech therapist at the elementary school that was only a few blocks from my old house I grew up in. She has been married for almost two years now. I had asked her about another mutual friend and she told me that this other friend of ours is a nurse at Stanford and married with 3 kids. All I have to show for myself is a divorce and being a single mom to 1.

These women seem so sophisticated and independent. They both finished college and have great careers. They found love and still have it. I’ve become one of the statistics of women who dropped out of college to marry young, start a family and ended up divorced by 30.

I know I am making a life for my son and I by returning to school. I know I will feel so proud of what I have accomplished once I graduate. Frankly, my future husband will be getting the better end of the stick. He gets the independent, strong and more mature me, than my ex ever got. I just wish I could finish school quickly and meet the right man…like 10 minutes ago!

What I fail to realize is that I am independent in a lot of ways. Being a single I’ve had to do things on my own that I wouldn’t have done 2 1/2 years ago. I go to church alone. Whew that was a biggie. Just walking into the building that first day was scary. Then there was my friend’s wedding I had to attend alone. Attending my grandmother’s funeral alone. I went to the movie theater to see Pirates of the Caribbean III, all by myself. Even though I may have two have roommates and accept child support from my ex in order to survive financially, I am still somewhat independent. Or at least I’d like to think so.

Why does it seem when you’re not with anyone, that is the time when everyone around you is suddenly in a fantastic relationship? I have one roommate who got engaged 2 weeks ago and the other has a great boyfriend as of a month ago, who started off as her best friend. I have a good friend who met a man and 2 months later moved in with him.

I still think being single sucks but obviously there is a reason why every man I meet is the wrong person. God is still preparing him for me out there.

Now to end this blog on a lighter note. I seriously laughed so hard watching this I nearly peed my pants. The scary part is this is this is a man. He’s outraged at how the media picked apart Britney Spears’ come back.

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