The common denominator realization

Is there a point when you really start to take a deep look at the common denominator and realize “maybe it is me”? I now haven’t heard from the guy that’s in Oregon since our last conversation in which he was encouraging me when I was upset a few nights ago.

Here is the last of our conversation. I can see nothing that indicated the possibility of offending him or turning him off.

Me: Yea I don’t care for LA much. 2 hours in traffic to travel 20 miles is ridiculous. lol Well, I should head to bed now. My son has to be at school early. Thanks for encouraging me and chatting with me after a rough night. I’ll chat with you tomorrow, perhaps.

Him: Anytime miss ladyyyy, u take care and dont forget to pray, and remember Pray for what u dont have!, not for what u already have!…..smiles…..huG sleePtight

Perhaps me being upset and relying on a complete stranger to encourage me and make me feel better comes off as too needy. I honestly can’t win at this dating game. I can’t seem to attract and hold the interest of men I am attracted to. People have told me I am too picky. I don’t think I am too picky. I just know what I like and what I don’t like.
Maybe I am too boring, too silly, too fat, not pretty enough, too spiritual, not spiritual enough, my hair is too curly, my eyes are too brown. Whatever the reason, I’m obviously failing horribly at locking someone in on me. At least locking in the type I am attracted to.

I’m approaching my threshold of the not interested in dating phase. This phase usually occurs after 1-2 bad dates. When I take my break it’s usually a period of 4-6 months. Of course the last break was nearly 8 months. I’m just getting so tired of this.

My son started at a new school today after beginning kindergarten 2 weeks ago at another school.I didn’t have to worry about him getting upset. He was excited about going to a new school. Already his classroom makes me feel better about having him attend a new school. The classroom has windows. His other class had no windows.

I’m really into
VH1′s The Pick Up Artist. I watched it tonight and was so glad when Pradeep got sent home. I disliked him since the first episode. He’s a real jerk! He slapped Joe tonight and he couldn’t even apologize and mean it. He’s too prideful.